A little baby became an angel today. We had our funeral for Melissa's niece today who was a stillborn twin. I thought that since I was in the hospital with the family during the delivery of the two beautiful little ones, that somehow it might have been easier today to be there for them at the service. Boy, was I wrong. But it brought everyone together. I literally mean everyone, at least on her side of the family. We had four generations under one roof enjoying the new life and mourning the premature loss. It was a perfect time to reveal that we were pregnant or so at least my sister in-law who suffered the loss seemed to think. Turns out she was totally right. Everyone was extremely receptive and happy for the news. Missy and I were just in this state of trance-like bliss after telling so many people.
This is the biggest step in my life. To see how close this family is even with all their issues with each other is so inspiring. I'm drawing from the deepest source of strength and unity that I once thought couldn't exist. Don't read too deep into this. My family definitely rocks. My younger cousin Andrew and I are closer than brothers. We may have a little distance between us as of late but I can seriously tell him anything. He'll be our babe's uncle as far as I'm concerned. My mom and her sisters are another story... One we just won't get into on a blog like this.
We had our first appointment on Wednesday, May 5th. We are going through a midwife and we are going to try and go medicine free.
N302 is a sort of pathology section of RN school. Our little break was technically less than a week and we are starting 302 on Monday. I got "validated" this morning which is an insult to our intelligence much like everything else in this school. Validation consists of getting a yellow sheet of paper that may have just as easily been mailed out to our apartment that just proves that we paid in advance either with arranging financial aid or just paid however possible... 'bumps in the road,' I just keep telling myself it is all just 'bumps in the road.'
Nothing can get me down... my baby is having my baby and there is work to be done.
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